Spending Life as I should
“Teach us to number our days and recognize how few they are; help us to spend them as we should.”
Psalms 90:12 (Paraphrase)
“Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”
Psalms 90:12 (NIV)
It just dawned on me that my life is numbered. Just have few days to spend here on this earth. I was drawn between seeing my Master & Lord Jesus immediately and still staying with my little children and wife here on earth.
Of course I would be glad to just go where my Master lives, worshipping Him not from a distance but closer…. much closer which is my ultimate goal. But it saddened me also to leave my family at this very moment. I can’t imagine leaving my two years old and six years old sons under the lone care of my wife. I want to enjoy their presence as much as they do to mine. And I can’t even imagine leaving my wife – my better half just for now. I want to see her hairs turned to gray and mine falls off leaving me balder and balder everyday. (Bald is great….. it suits me. I have tried it. Bwahahahhh…)
But who can tell if at any moment my God calls me home? Do I have the courage to say “not yet my Lord?” Of course not.
So, I have decided to realign my priorities (my family is first), and to do what pleases my Lord while still living here on earth. Counting each day as my last and enjoying God’s goodness allotted to me day by day. Throwing all life’s garbage to where it belongs and embracing the gift of life as it presents in every divers ways.
